I remember trying to kill it, or embrace it. But i didn't know what was i was trying to kill, i didn't know what i wanted to embrace . It was a superficial control I had, a flick of control, nothing , I was behind, I was tied by my Ego, couldn't make sense of it. But in there, in the dark, the only thing i could do, was to hear, and i heard it all, i heard everything as I was unable to have a voice of my own , I heard them talking....and knew it wasn't me. But how could I get out , how? Everything was like a second for me, where I am there is no time, no space, no egos , nothing. But i had the rare gift of life, but cuffed for so long it's not a living at all. So I started to come to strenght, to surface, to reflect the simplicity of voidness, and it seemed like something complicating simple for the other egos , for the other ja...